... when everyone stares at you waiting, what you will say next? Some people enjoy the thrill of being in the spotlight. I absolutely hated it. Growing up in an environment where I was judged for everything I did, while not know for myself what was right or wrong, made me become really insecure.
So naturally, I would sh*t myself whenever I had to stand in front of other people presenting something - Wondering what would they think about me?
I still remember the feeling of freedom, when I moved abroad, living on my own. It felt like all the eyes that were constantly staring at me were gone and I was able to live my purpose - helping others to become great.
Even though I loved the idea of becoming an educator, I still had this unwell feeling when I started teaching and stood in front of the class because it triggered my past experience.
Fortunately, my mentor and coach helped me to get rid of my insecurity of being judged. Now I focus on the outcome that I want to create. Focussing on the value that I want to provide, knowing that it will never be perfect, because I learned:
You don't get paid for being perfect, you get paid for ...
After getting rid of my fear of being judged, I am finally able to serve the community in the best way possible.
Regardless of whether offline or online, I feel more comfortable sharing my personal stories and experiences knowing that someone in the audience might benefit from it.
I used to think that my life was not special. Wandering around, not knowing what I wanted but always looking up to people that were successful, hoping that I could become like them.
Now I believe that facing my life is the greatest gift. Even though I did not always like my past and was full of ups and downs, it shaped me into the person I am today. By sharing my personal stories about identity, success/falirues, and values I want to inspire people to see their own uniqueness, leaving a unique fingerprint on this planet.
Yoko Ono
During my time in New Zealand, I met so many great and kind-hearted people that taught me so much about life. Being deeply grateful to those meaningful encounters, that shaped me to the person I am now, it is now my turn to give back to the community.
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